Trying not to post so much. Just seems like I can't escape my thoughts, feelings, and things going on. Just seems as though I am screwing up more things lately... My husband's and my anniversary today. 10 years. I was so upset emotionally last night and started yelling at him on my frustrations. He knows it wasn't him. Just hate struggling so much. Tearing everything around me up. Kids are fighting. I tried getting them outside today and got, "I'm bored". Sadly, my depression has me isolating and everyone is suffering because of it. All these and more has me thinking about suicide even more. I keep failing everyone around me. So exhausted. When will this ever end with me?