I just started college and it's rough. I feel so behind already and it's only the second week. I can't keep up and I know that I'm going to fail. My manic depressive mood swings are getting worse again. I'm supposed to be in therapy every week, But I'm lucky if I make it every two. I'm waiting for surgery and I'm in pain every day. My sister's kidney failure is at it's final stages. She skips dialysis and she's very ill right now. My job is unbelievably stressful. My main manager is amazing, but I don't work with her much. I work with the supervisors, and they're tough. I'm tired of getting chewed out every time I work. I've been having post-traumatic nightmares most nights. I can't seem to get a grip on myself. To top it off, my bedroom got flooded. My brother's washer pipe came loose and flooded, The water came down to this apartment. The wall is starting to crumble, The ceiling is weak, And my bed may be ruined now. I can't sleep in there because of the black mold. The stench is awful. I just want to curl up and sleep for a week. I need a magic fix, fast.