Hello all, and I'm so glad this forum is here for us all. I've had depression and suicidal thoughts for decades, since I was a kid. It's usually under control, especially because I have 2 kids, and I just wouldn't off myself because of how it would wreck them. But hitting perimenopause has unleashed a new level of unhappy that I can't always keep on top of. I've had some success with hormone cream and acupuncture (A skilled acupuncturist can truly keep the depression under control... I wish I could go every week!!) I'm very fortunate in a lot of ways, really high functioning, but lately I'm unproductive so often that it scares me, and makes life even more difficult. I'm looking for other "seasoned", busy, depressed persons who can share strategies. (I have so many questions I want to ask all the time, but it's usually better to just not think about stuff.) Especially looking for Ekhardt Tolle followers. Thanks.