I know everyone will probably tell me not to commit suicide, which is expected. Anyways, I was planning on doing so soon (using a method i know has a high percentage of working....), and was just wondering what others would think... Ive been suffering from a social anxiety type situation pretty much my whole life. When such events occur, it causes me to be depressed and such. Because of that ive grown to be anti-social, because i dont want to be hurt anymore. Ive already seen the doctors, and am just awaiting for an appointment to start treatment (which could take an additional 2 months). Ive already tried suicide b4, well planned out and everthing, although the method was flawed and obviously it failed. Oddly enough, even though im happy with the rest of my life, my career, and nearly 90% the rest of the time, I still want to end my life. I kinda feel hopeless that a solution to my problem will ever come, and at this point id rather die a happy man then have to go through any more pain. Im actually looking forward to it. I just dont see any alternatives. Nor do i see a doctor being able to boost my self-confidence or social skills. After the previous attempt i had gone to a phyciatrist who said i wasnt suffering from depression or anything and just needed a confidence boost. All in all i just want it to end now, and just remember my life as it is.