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I'm posting this because I NEED to get this out! I can't talk to anyone in my life about this, it would be way to embarrassing! [deep breath in] here goes...
Okay, short background story:
I have a little problem that has lasted my whole life and it is ruining my life. I am at the point of DO or DIE. Part of the reason I believe I'm depressed is that I feel like I have nothing to live for. I have never had a boyfriend. My mom says it is because I am unapproachable to guys. I walk around looking like I have the attitude I could care-less about them.
My weird problem is that I do obsess and fantasize about guys and sex, etc. but the guys are celebrities! Of some type. The latest one being a local hockey player. I feel that is already to much information, but whatever. I've been crushing hard on him since october (5 months) and it is not going away. The only way it does go away is if I see a movie and start crushing on some other celebrity. I know, it sounds like I'm 13 but I am 21. And don't start thinking I'm immature for my age... there are underlying issues here that would take to long to discuss.
Problem gets worse: :tongue:
Then last week I went to a hockey game and I got the chance to see him up close in real life! I never realised how possible it is for my dream to become a reality, except for the fact that he probably would never like me. Anyways, since that day I keep devising plans on how I can maybe catch his attention. This is where I need your advice.
The plan: :unsure:
So now that I know how I can catch him in real life, I was thinking that if I got together a little note and a little present, I could maybe get his attention. I don't know if he has a girlfriend already, but I know he isn't married, so I'm technically not doing anything wrong. I'd make the note short and sweet, and write something like "this is just a little something for my favorite guy in the city" and "in case you want to "thank" me, here is my number..." and I'd say that I have no regrets, no matter what he decides to do. I would tell him my name, my age and that I'm a nursing student, which should appeal to an athlete, don't ya think? And the most perfect part of this is the day I would do it... [wait for it...] Valentine's Day!! So something this crazy wouldn't be THAT weird, would it??
Aside from the fact that the chances of him actually calling is very slim, do you think i should try? I feel like if I don't then the chance is 0, but if I do it is like, 0.1. Another reason I want to try is, personally, i do think i have a chance. I know I have a very low self-esteem but i'm kind of optimistic about this. I'm physically fit, I'm a nursing student, I'm thin and with make-up I can be pretty. If he can see these things, don't I have a chance??
Wow, this is a long post and for that I am very sorry! Any advice would be greatful, even if all of you think it is a bad idea. I don't want to look like an ass, now do I?? So please tell me!
Chances are, I'll chicken out at the last second anyway but it feels sooo good to get it out at least.
Those of you who read, please respond!
Okay, short background story:
I have a little problem that has lasted my whole life and it is ruining my life. I am at the point of DO or DIE. Part of the reason I believe I'm depressed is that I feel like I have nothing to live for. I have never had a boyfriend. My mom says it is because I am unapproachable to guys. I walk around looking like I have the attitude I could care-less about them.
My weird problem is that I do obsess and fantasize about guys and sex, etc. but the guys are celebrities! Of some type. The latest one being a local hockey player. I feel that is already to much information, but whatever. I've been crushing hard on him since october (5 months) and it is not going away. The only way it does go away is if I see a movie and start crushing on some other celebrity. I know, it sounds like I'm 13 but I am 21. And don't start thinking I'm immature for my age... there are underlying issues here that would take to long to discuss.
Problem gets worse: :tongue:
Then last week I went to a hockey game and I got the chance to see him up close in real life! I never realised how possible it is for my dream to become a reality, except for the fact that he probably would never like me. Anyways, since that day I keep devising plans on how I can maybe catch his attention. This is where I need your advice.
The plan: :unsure:
So now that I know how I can catch him in real life, I was thinking that if I got together a little note and a little present, I could maybe get his attention. I don't know if he has a girlfriend already, but I know he isn't married, so I'm technically not doing anything wrong. I'd make the note short and sweet, and write something like "this is just a little something for my favorite guy in the city" and "in case you want to "thank" me, here is my number..." and I'd say that I have no regrets, no matter what he decides to do. I would tell him my name, my age and that I'm a nursing student, which should appeal to an athlete, don't ya think? And the most perfect part of this is the day I would do it... [wait for it...] Valentine's Day!! So something this crazy wouldn't be THAT weird, would it??
Aside from the fact that the chances of him actually calling is very slim, do you think i should try? I feel like if I don't then the chance is 0, but if I do it is like, 0.1. Another reason I want to try is, personally, i do think i have a chance. I know I have a very low self-esteem but i'm kind of optimistic about this. I'm physically fit, I'm a nursing student, I'm thin and with make-up I can be pretty. If he can see these things, don't I have a chance??
Wow, this is a long post and for that I am very sorry! Any advice would be greatful, even if all of you think it is a bad idea. I don't want to look like an ass, now do I?? So please tell me!
Chances are, I'll chicken out at the last second anyway but it feels sooo good to get it out at least.
Those of you who read, please respond!
