I never really have thoughts of suicide until something or someone makes me so angry or depressed. Recently, my boyfriend told me he had been cheating on me; we broke up. I wasn't that mad. But I began to think that no one in my life really loved me, that I had no true friends and I was kind of like a "back-up" friend. I ended up wanting to kill myself because I figured I would never have (or be) a true friend. Eventually, I got over those suicidal feelings. However, another thing happened today. My mom was being a bitch about my hair (she always is). Tomorrow is supposed to be my sister's graduation. I didn't want to go to the graduation or my sister's cookout with my hair looking a mess! But, my mom took out my extensions and now my hair looks really short and I don't like it one bit. I told my mom she's ruining my life and she doesn't own me - it's not like I asked to be her daughter, you know? I don't need her controlling every bit of my life. I figured that I couldn't take anymore of my mom controlling everything I do. (I'm not a submissive person. I don't let people tell me what to do (sometimes)). And now, I just don't want to live. However, a part of me wants to, but I want my mom to actually see how much of an impact her ways and her attitude have on me. I just want to get her attention. I'm trying to find a way I can get her attention - I've been thinking of ways to get me in the hospital or something, so people can take pity on me. I'm so lost right now, I don't know where my life is going, because other people are controlling it. tl;dr How do I get my mom's attention and tell her how miserable she's making me?