The suspicion among those who know me is that I'm bi-polar. Now I'm not sure what to make of this, its my recollection that throughout school I was depressed, I remember wanting to off myself around 13 due to bullying but I digress, maybe their were phases of happiness thrown in there but recently I've gone for periods of time where I'm beyond happy. I also become an impulsive drunken lout with an ego problem and I feel I've slipped out of that right now. I'm considering going to my GP but the concept terrifies me, mainly because I've never spoken out loud about my issues, those who know generally piece it together from behavioural observations and I really struggle with the idea of saying to a grown man "I am sad, what can you do" kinda thing. Im also concerned about the potential fallout this could bring on my shoulders, my intention is too join the police in the future and I'm not all too keen on the idea of them receiving an enhanced disclosure with "treated for bi-polar disorder" printed somewhere. I dunno, ideas folks?