Firstly I just want to say this is very hard to talk about but with no-one knowing who I am its makes it alittle easier.. I am sure many understand. I have a problem with derpression. I am not mad or mentally ill but some times i have bad days of feeling, lonely. empty and sad because of things that happen over my child hood and the break up of my ex girlfriend. I have contantplated with the idea of suicide for some time now, the thought of just driving in genual and then pull across the road into the on coming lorry seems, yet, so easy!. The reason I haven't is because 1- Will god forgive me if I do. 2- The sad feeling I get of leaving my dad, mum and brother behine. and 3- I feel weak if I do. I dont feel guilty I just feel down all the time mostly at nights and evenings they are the worst. I can't think of the last time i was genualry happy in myself. I listen to sad music and something about feeling this way I enjoy yet i dont want to feel this way.