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self-awareness sucks sometimes

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I have learned that I hate my life, not life in general. I have tried to keep hope alive, but it is fading fast. The only thing that keeps me going is that I don't want to hurt my loved ones.

I feel I'm very self-aware of my problem, and try to take steps to correct it, but I fear it is a slope I cannot traverse and am failing miserably. Despite knowing the roots of my problems, I am not strong enough to surpass them.

Medication has helped, but I can't find someone who gets it. I've tried therapists, and while they helped, I needed to find people who have gone through this. That's why I joined.

I self medicate to cope, so I don't I feel a constant stream of worthlessness and anger. Then I don't I have an overwhelming rush of hatred and frustration. I know it's part of the problem.

The worst part is I know what would be healthy, and I am intimately familiar with my issues, but I have no idea how to be "normal". Still, I don't want to be normal, just adjusted.

After years of hope and struggle, I have basically given up and let things play out as they may.

total eclipse

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well hun you are right that people here will understand and get it hun
So many are fighting that same battle as you . There is hope hun always hope so please keep reaching out okay h ugs to you
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