I need to talk to someone, I know it should probably be a GP or a professional but I'm too frightened of what they might say. I got diagnosed with depression four months ago and it feels like a battle I can't win. Around 2 weeks ago I split up with my partner that I had been with for just under a year, we worked together so I ended up walking out of work in the middle of the night and walking 4 miles home. I've booked a holiday for myself, never been abroad by myself and I think that's where I'm going to try and commit suicide. I just haven't worked out a way to do it yet, I just know I can't go home after my holiday. It feels like I have nothing and this is my only option. I also smoke a lot of cannabis, I know this Is a depressant but it's the only thing that gives me some form of break from my thoughts. Any advice would be great, thanks!