It seems like when I finally feel like I'm moving forward I just like to stop. Take two steps back. I made deans list for the past two semesters, first time I've done that. This semester I have a 30% average for one class, a 0% for another and a 70% in another, and no grade for my last class. I'm supposed to be writing an 8 page midterm, but instead I'm 9 beers in on a 12 pack and looking at a bottle of vodka to top them. I have class at 830 tomorrow morning were I'm supposed to lead a discussion, I haven't done any of the readings. I'm supposed to graduate this semester, if I could get at least a 3.0 this semester than grad school would still be a possibility, if I don't basically I'll never be able to get in. I'm blowing off my girl too, everytime she calls I send it to voicemail. Sometimes I'll text back, mostly I don't.