I am miserable here. I suck at making friends but thats ok because they will stab me in the back anyway. Before I go I will treat every girl i meet like a worthless whore because they deserve it in advance for making me a doormat. I don't know when i will go for sure but i'm at the point where i'm not even crying anymore. i don't care about anything. I am way to nice to people to go through this. So fuck them. 'wahhh don't kill yourself or i will be sad for a few days but i'm a selfish human and want you to live because i only care about my own feelings. Finally i might get replies unlike my other posts. No one gives a shit about what I feel until I threaten killing myself because hey its not their problem. And helping someone pull out of suicide will boost their suicide counseling ego. So don't deny it you know thats why.