Just a random question/thought.
Nothing is wrong (that I know of), I'm not sad, not happy. Nothing has happened. Yet today somehow I am self harming (I'm not addicted), I'm self medicating to a point where I'm pushing my limits, and taking stupid risks.
Yet, Nothing is wrong?
Does anyone else do these self destructive, senseless things for absolutely no reason at all?
I'm just trying to understand myself a little I guess.
Nothing is wrong (that I know of), I'm not sad, not happy. Nothing has happened. Yet today somehow I am self harming (I'm not addicted), I'm self medicating to a point where I'm pushing my limits, and taking stupid risks.
Yet, Nothing is wrong?
Does anyone else do these self destructive, senseless things for absolutely no reason at all?
I'm just trying to understand myself a little I guess.
This has happend to me several times. It almost seems like I enjoy the pain.
Lately I have lost my appetite and I barely eat and I have been loosing so much weight.
One of my friends realized what was happening and she looked at me and asked me why I was doing this to myself. I told her I didn't know why. It just felt normal. She then said "You are doing this because you have found another way to punish and hurt yourself."
That opened my eyes somehow.
Hope you are doing alright. Thinking of you.