I have been cutting up my arms and chest on and off for about a year. does anyone else feel proud of their scars in a weird way as if it were a war wound. i mean a few days ago i started cutting my upper arm with a razor blade and was in a sort of trance and kept slicing in the same place. I couldn't see how deep it was because of all the blood and when i finally stop i had this gapping wound which was just pissing with blood. I panicked at first beacuse i thought i would have to go to the hospital and get stitched up and everyone would know my dirty little secret. so i just grabbed a needle and tread and started stitching myself up and when i had finished i was sorta proud of it. does anyone else feel like that.