hey it's my first time posting here so i'll give a bit of backstory. i self harmed for four years and attempted suicide last year. i was in a psychiatric hospital for two months and have self harmed a few times since but have managed to go the past two months without cutting (which is the longest i've ever gone). but yesterday i relapsed and i'm just having really terrible suicidal thoughts. i was just hoping for some advice and maybe to hear how other's deal with this. thank you.