Im A virgin and i know its kinda natural to be scared and apprehensive of sex. However there is this girl im getting really close to (im bi) but i have really bad self hatred issues and the idea of sharing my body with someone or someone even lookin at my body..make me feel physically sick. It really gets in the way. I couldnt have fallen for a nicer girl she doesnt mind at all but she is very experience so i dont want her to be with me and not have sex. I no its good that she's experienced because she has seen many people. but she has also had some very good sexual partners that have pleased her a lot (we talk about stuff openly lol) . I just feel so guilty about my issues. Its horrible. and i scared its never going to go away. I hate the idea of us having sex and her having sex with this hideous person. Its just not fair on her I really need to lose weight and tone up. But i have NO motivation whatsoever. I need a personal trainer or something. Anyone know where i can get one for free lol. Sorry for the rant at the end of this when im nervous and anxious i type a lot.!!