I don't cut as a lot of people here do. I stab myself with knitting needles on my leg as well as punch my leg. i am starting to induce panic attacks for some reason or another. the stress of college and this mental illness has taken its toll on my well being. I have a hard time going out in public because people yell at me. usually when i walk to the grocery store entrance, from the other side of the road out of their car windows, and the neighbors across the street who yell at me (i.e. ho and *****). because of these people i have started to think that there is no hope for getting my mental illness under control. i was given a disciplinary letter about my outburst at people who had been harassing me since early september. walking behind/staring at me, evil looks, laughing and accusing me of being gay in class. counselor says its me being paranoid and that i am imagining things because all the people she interviewed said nothing was going on. bull shit. anyway, if anyone knows how to kill the cravings of wanting to hurt oneself, drop me a line.