Im sure a lot of us if not most here must have some type self sabotaging behaviors that are ingrained in our subconscious for one reason or another, I know I definitely do. Acting in ways that completely compromise my ability to achieve my goals, even though in my consciousness wants to be happy and 'successful' there is something in the subconscious&ego that will make me act in the opposite way which is getting in the way of being generally more content with life. Just would like to hear any thoughts you guys have on the subject? Anything at all. I was watching a video on this which I agree with that said it has a lot to do with the ego and I agree but its hard to think about how exactly it relates but it must have something to do with that. Also I think a big part for me is being scared of 'success' and perfectionism. Last few years Ive gotten so used to failing that it has become comfortable where it takes guts to take a chance trying things to be successful even if it may fail at first. Also I have perfectionism attitude a lot where if I dont think I can be 100 percent perfect at something, i just give up and dont try at all which causes so many problems with life and even relationships. I really do want to conquer my demoms and try not to dwell on some of the stuff life has brought upon me but it is hard. Some times like now I can feel so motivated to change but then say when I wake up in the morning I may have a completely different attitude and hate everything again and have an overall negative attitude. Ive finally stopped procrastinating and started a written journal at home because I think this will be one of the most important things if not the most important thing I can do try and get better, to keep focused and track my thoughts, goals and progress. Any thoughts on trying to fix self sabotaging or anything related to the subject?