everyone thinks that suicide is selfish. i used to think they were all fuckheads but im no so sure anymore. I tried an overdose since it was nonviolent and didnt endanger/involve anyone, but it failed. the method i want to use now involves someone else technically doing the killing so i feel like i cant now since they would feel horrible for the rest of their life. but its so foolproof it hurts to give that idea up! GAHHH! its like either they're selfish for making me live or im selfish for putting my unhappiness onto them, either way, someones fucked. why does it have to be me? i dont have the means for the REALLY foolproof way so i dont know what to do. i wish i could wish myself to death.