Sorry for making another annoying "does anybody else feel the same way?" thread, but sometimes it helps to know I'm not alone. So, with that said... Does anybody else trigger when they hear other people getting called "fat" or "ugly?" Even if the insult isn't addressed at me, I immediately compare myself to the person who it was intended for, and figure that I must be even worse by comparison. It bothers me more than "stupid" (maybe because I've already just accepted the fact that I'm stupid). Even when people try to spin it into something positive, like "but you're not fat and ugly; just look at those other people, the ones who are really fat and ugly!" -- why does appearance have to be a standard of judgment at all? Why are we always fighting each other for a spot in some kind of hierarchy of beauty? Knowing somebody thinks other people are below me doesn't fix what's wrong inside of me. YouTube videos are the worst. I mean, not like YT was ever an upper echelon of intellectual discourse or anything, but it seems like no matter what kind of video somebody uploads -- tutorials or music or dance vids -- there's a whole string of people saying, "What the hell do you think you're doing? You're too ugly to ever be famous!" or even just using "fat" as an extra insult, like, "You can't sing, and you're fat, too!" These people were never claiming to be professionals; they probably just wanted to share their hobby on their personal blogs or something -- but apparently it's not enough to just want to have a little fun, when the whole world is always watching. It reinforces that dichotomy in my head that says "you're either perfect, or you're worthless scum." I already know I'm too sensitive, and I'm not trying to claim that the world is responsible for my eating disorder -- but this in particular just really, really gets under my skin.