I know everyone is going to think im crazy but i can't help it. First my twin gone now my daughter. I never needed them i was always independant took care of myself. I don't need anyone but i worry constantly for my twin and my daughter. With them not here my mind goes off into some awful places. I spent time with my mother and brothers today just so i am not alone thinking. I want this pain to go away i want this saddness to go away when i had them here i did not have time to think. I hate this i told my T i can't do this it is too hard. I lay in bed hoping sleep will take away everything i really don't want to think distractions walking i am so tired so tired i just want to lie down and not get up I have always been able to survive why thehell is this happening I hate me rightnow I want this pathetic person to go away so dam pathetic it is sickening.