Im caught up in something very bad and know i deserve to die a most horrible death because of it, suicide would be a god send for what would be instore for me. Atlest 75% of SF would think the same, guaranteed. I want to get help SO badly and get out of it but if i tell anyone i´ll most definatly go to prison and that scares the shit out of me enuth to want to kill myself anyway. I need help. Its like a disease controling my mind turning me into a monster.