This may be an unusual post but I need to mention whats happening as I am really in a desperate situation. Firstly its not about me but my older brother who is 36 (I am 34) I have always been close to him his entire life and I am fearing I may finally lose him after a 20 years long battle with his inner demons. He led a normal childhood and normal teenage life until he hit around 17, out of the blue serious depression hit him. He was able to subside the depression somewhat but it always came back and he seemed to develop serious paranoia and social anxiety with it. He's had friends but has never really been able to trust many people strangely and has never in his life had a girlfriend or even been close to a woman. So after nearly 20 years of anti-depressants and therapy and everything you can think of, he's still going down. He was recently sectioned for a while because he was a danger to himself and I went to see him with mother who he is also close to. I know he is suicidal and has been for a long time but won't kill himself simply because he does not want to hurt his family which is admirable, I keep telling him to fight and that he'll get back to his old self but I have been saying this for 20 years and after he looked me in the eyes when our mother stepped out the room and said to me 'just let me go please.' I almost broke down. It was from his heart I could see he was just a tired burned out man who has lost all peace of mind. I did not know what to say at the time and just sat there sort of dumbfounded but I tried to stay strong for him but I know deep in his heart he wants to die I can see it in his eyes and he's only been alive so far for us. I don't know what to do!!! I really don't want him to die as I love him but then I see him now after such a slow descent into 'madness' after nearly 20 years. I know he's only trying to think of us more than himself. He's a sick man and more than likely always will be and maybe now is the time...perhaps if he really is in so much agony to....ah I don't even know it makes me teary eyed just thinking about it. any advice? HELP!!!!!!! I have not told my mother what he told me either.