Anyone who reads my posts has probably noticed I struggle a lot with sexual issues.. I was thinking and I figured I should see if anyone else feels the same way about sexual relationships as I do... Im not sure if I can make it a simple direct question or not but let me try.. Does anyone else have mixed feelings when it comes to sex? Let me explain.. My husband and I went thru relationship hell when I was pregnant with our now 4 year old. He cheated on me shortly before we found out which spirled things downhill big time. I stewed on the idea of abortion but couldnt even bring myself to look for a clinic. I felt trapped in a relationship I didnt want and blah blah blah.. A little time passes and Im coming to terms with what happend. Im interested in a real relationship again and keeping the marriage going...Hes afraid to touch me because of the old hurt the baby fear.. Even after the midwife says its okay he gets all weirded out.. Anyhow..After the babys born I develope trouble with normal sexual functioning (lots of pain....).. Time goes on... He claims sex isnt important to him anymore. I guess I can believe it, he is in his 40s, and I like to think our relationship is worth something more.. Im struggling with mixed feelings.. Im not into some of the other options when it comes to sex. I dont like letting him do me a favor (I hope everyone understands what I mean) because I feel guilty of giving nothing back. Although I think of sex Im not really interested in having sex which makes me feel guilty and sort of depressed/upset. Does anyone else struggle with mixed feelings, thoughts, emotions, ect? Im sorry if this post goes into to much detail. I just really wanted to compair. I feel so alone on this subject.