I'm new to this thread. I've suffered from anxiety on and off for about 5 years and depression within the past 4 months or so. I'd say right now is the worst I've felt in my whole struggle. The past 48 hours or so I've been seriously contemplating ending it. I guess I don't need advice or anything just wondering how you handle these thoughts. I have so much stuff coming up I am so nervous about and just want it to end before it even begins.