Urgh, i feel so shit right now. In tears. Feeling sorry for myself. Planning. Planning in my head. I know the first part. Thats gonna be the hardest thing for me to do. The biggest thing. After that comes the hurt. If the first bit goes right, then no one here will be hurt too much. Hell they won't even know. Tonight i think i'm gonna attempt. Actually I AM. I deserve it. Need it. Need to die. Will die. Worth the pain. Die Vikki, die. You will die tonight. You will do something serious tonight. I promise you. Gonna try my wrist's right now. See how far i can go. I'm sorry, This is the way its meant to be.