I took a lot of pills on Thursday night in the hope would work. Any way I discharged my self from hospital against medical advice and before psych people saw me. So I came home and thought maybe there was still hope for me hope as in ending it all and that it would work;. But 30hours after discharging myself I dont feel any effects so takeing it that it hasn't worked. I still want to end it. I seriously am having some sort of breakdown at the moment and i dont know what i cam do. All I can think about it how i can finish everything. Something in my planning needs to change. I start to freak out when I start being sick and get help, so need somthing without making me sick. My plans are now changing.