That Anyone is going to bother reading this. Hm. I horse ride six or seven days a week. For almost four years now. But I don't really care anymore. I've deleted my facebook. Haven't checked my email in three weeks. And I can't remember the las time I was actually online. I've told my parents this. Hoping that they might wonder why. Or bother caring. That's obviously not been the case. My brother and sister have moved. I think it's safe to say that I'm depressed. My parents... Fight fairly often. My dads a pilot so when he's home they do. Aaaand it usually ends up being my fault. I am so bored of my life. School starts soon. Don't want to go back. Don't want to see any of them again. Competition season starts soon. Don't care, I'll never be getting anywhere. I haven't told anyone this. It's my problem and I don't want to make it anyone elses. Also, I don't want help. I'm not going to talk to anyone. I'll take medication but that's all. My plan was actually to just get rid of myself. Actually it still is my plan. And even if I fail, I'll end up somewhere away from these assholes that don't even bother asking what's wrong. That don't bother thinking "hmm I wonder why she's giving up on her passion and friends" nah, too much hard work to think. Just felt like saying something. Hope they read it some day and realise that it wasn't their fault... But they could have helped. Thanks for abandoning me.