Hey all. I am 17 years old. I have attempted suicide once, and I am seriously afraid I might do it again. I have extreme anger built up inside of me for one reason. My mother. I can't deal with her anymore. She constantly pushes all my buttons. I never feel so much anger or pain when I have to deal with her. I have no self-esteem or confidence. She is constantly attacking me, making me feel worthless and like shit. She says I'm a monster and deserve to rot in hell. That I'm an ungrateful bastard and don't deserve anything good that happens to me. I've tried everything I could, talking to her and trying to understand why she is like this. But she doesn't want to give me a chance. I'm always wrong and she is always right. I hate her so much. But I don't know where to turn. I have no friends or family that will help me. My dad couldn't give a shit about it. He just sits on his ass while all these things are said, and acts like everything is perfect and normal. I have dreams about her all the time, where she is constantly screaming at me and berating me, and I finally snap and hurt her. I'm afraid I might snap one day and actually kill myself. Or hurt her. Or someone else. I just feel so angry and hurt that I feel like I'm going to explode. But I dunno where to go. I need help.