I just feel so alone and abandoned. I can't take it; I hurt too much to stand. I cut myself a couple of days ago and had to get stitches. But I'm still feeling hurt. Tonight, my plan is to take an entire xxxx and maybe take my xxxx I don't get it, but having the plan like that..... it calms me down to know that the pain will be over soon. I'm just tired of all the hurt.