Seriously

[dying_inside]

I feel like nobody is taking me seriously, so...

Seriously, why should i wait?

I feel so utterly alone...

 

[Acy]

@dying_inside - Would you like to share more about who is not taking you seriously and what it is they are not taking seriously? I’m sure people here will listen.

 

[dying_inside]

My T and Psych are not taking me seriously.
I wish they would do something but they do nothing.

 

[Acy]

I’m sorry to hear that. It’s hard to know what to say because I’m not sure what they are not taking seriously.

You wish they would do “something”…What would you like them to do that they are not doing?

 

[dying_inside]

i wish they would make me go IP... but probably they dont know im struggling on a daily basis

 

[iloverachel]

Im sorry to hear that. I hope they take you seriously and you find a way to feel better

 

[Astrid78]

I understand how that feels and hope you can get them to listen
Hugs @dying_inside

 

[dying_inside]

Thank you everyone for the support. really needed.
Love, DI

 

[Acy]

I’m assuming you’ve told them directly that you feel that is what would help you.

Some doctors and therapists are hesitant to hospitalize patients because it can make some patients dependent on turning to the hospital to take care of them every time life gets hard. (I’m not say that is what you’re doing…just that some doctors and therapists think that way.) Sometimes, if it is what we really believe is going to help us, we have to try talking about it a few times. I know that’s not easy. I hope you and they are able to have a productive and helpful conversation about this soon.

 

[dying_inside]

No Acy, i havent told them directly that would help because deep down i dont believe it, but still i wish they offered it.

I dont see Psych until feb 9. sometimes drives are so hard its hard to resist. this too i havent told them...

it looks like i expect them to understand without talking. thank you for making me realize it.

next time i'll try talking. maybe i can see psychiatrist before that date. i'll try calling her today.

Thank you so much, you helped.

 

[dying_inside]

Im caught up in anorexia and sometimes on good days it helps and sometimes in bad days it only increases my willing to die.
Today is a bad day.
could anyone talk with me please?

 

[iloverachel]

Im caught up in anorexia and sometimes on good days it helps and sometimes in bad days it only increases my willing to die.
Today is a bad day.
could anyone talk with me please?

Hello I am here to talk

 

[dying_inside]

Thank you iloverachel,

its really a bad day. i havent slept all night and my weight went up and im in a total crisis. i feel like crying so much, actually on the verge of it...

my mind cant take it much longer... what can i do?

 

[iloverachel]

Thank you iloverachel,

its really a bad day. i havent slept all night and my weight went up and im in a total crisis. i feel like crying so much, actually on the verge of it...

my mind cant take it much longer... what can i do?

I wish i could help. I think you might need some sleep or rest.

 

[dying_inside]

Thank you for talking with me.
i cannot sleep anymore. i took my meds but they dont work.
i'll ask for new meds when i see psychiatrist next time.
im shaking.
i hate feeling like this and do nothing about it.
theres nothing to do about it anyway
i have lost all hope

 

[iloverachel]

Thank you for talking with me.
i cannot sleep anymore. i took my meds but they dont work.
i'll ask for new meds when i see psychiatrist next time.
im shaking.
i hate feeling like this and do nothing about it.
theres nothing to do about it anyway
i have lost all hope

I know how you feel. To be in so much pain and suffering and theres nothing that helps ease it. Its the worst and i hate feeling like that most the time too.
I really wish i knew the solution to it that doesn't involve suicide. Hopefully we can find something to ease our suffering

 

[dying_inside]

Im gonna see a friend, maybe it will distract me. but its not a solution.
distractions are temporary. i need a real definitive permanent fix.

 

[iloverachel]

Im gonna see a friend, maybe it will distract me. but its not a solution.
distractions are temporary. i need a real definitive permanent fix.

Go for it! If it makes you feel better even temporarily, thats still good. Hope you have fun seeing your friend

 

[dying_inside]

i dont feel like it, but it will take my mind off for a while. yes temporary but still good. thank you.
i hope you have a good day. wish you all the best

 

[dying_inside]

too temporary.
im back,
asked for help to the doc but its saturday, nobody's there.
asked my family to see them tonight but they're out.
im so utterly alone
im crying
tempted to call the hotline