I was put on Seroquel (Quatopine) in January 2011 and was on it until this past January 2014. I started at a low dose in the beginning and my doctor put me all the way to 600. Within in the first year I was put on 300mg of Seroquel, by May 2012 I was on 600 MG and have been on it until January 2014. All in all I was on Seroquel for three years. The thing is I never had psychosis nor am I bi polar in any way or form, Seroquel was prescribed to me as a mood stabilizer and to help me with my sleep, so I took it every night. I was also on Celexa for three and a half years for my depression before the Seroquel and I stopped both of them at the same time this past January, a side effect of the celexa was being hostile, angry, and rageful, I would get all kinds of angry thoughts, I was just a mean person and hated everyone, my doctor told me that Seroquel would help with that even though I was not psychotic, though he never pointed out that these thoughts and feelings might have been a side effect from the celexa. And so that is why I took Seroquel, I took it as directed everyday for three years making it all the way to 600mg a night. When I came off of it back in January I went through the withdrawal symptoms such as anxiety and insomnia and a bit of depression but that was also because of the coming of off celexa as well. The thing that did not happen however, which happens to a lot of people who come off of anti-psychotics, is that no psychotic symptoms re appeared, key work “re” because I never had them to begin with, people that do have those symptoms which they were given the anti-psychotics for in the first place, do take a risk when coming off these meds of their symptoms returning, that did not happen to me, coming off of Seroquel did not make me worry because I know that was not the case for me, I was never psychotic in any way or form, nor did I get psychotic while I was on Seroquel. So I came off the meds in January and it was not until about a month later that I got these anxiety attacks and constantly worry and obsess over things. It can be about anything. I get scared about a lot of things. Then I developed cognitive obsessive compulsive disorder out of nowhere where everything is mental and no rituals, this still carries onto other things, the issues change but the symptoms do not. The symptoms are worse now where I am severely obsessing and worrying about things, I ruminate, analyze and can’t stop thinking about things, it almost feels like I am less intelligent than before and that I am losing touch with reality, I go over the same things in my head over and over again and tell myself the same things over and over again, repeating things, ideas, conclusions, fears, what-if scenarios, analyzing. I talk to people about what specifically is on my mind but it only helps for a small while and everyone assures me of things, but I still go mad over the same things and new things as well, it is almost as if I am being psychotic because it is paranoia, delusional, and unrealistic, and even irrational. I can’t control my mind anymore, I am losing touch with reality. I was never like this, not before or while I was on meds. Though I am not hearing or seeing things that are not there, I still feel and know that my obsessive thoughts, worries, and preoccupations are not normal, the things I get crazy over seem silly to other people and these type of things never bothered me before or crossed my mind, knowing this is enough. I was never like this at all, never at any point in my life. This all started when I got off the Seroquel. What I am trying to figure out is that if being on an anti-psychotic without being psychotic could have messed up my brain by either making me psychotic or lose touch with reality, can my brain be like this now because of the Seroquel that I was on for three years which I stopped taking four months ago? Is this brain damage? Can anything be done about this? All these concerns over Seroquel can equally be applied to the celexa that I was on as well since I was on it for a little longer than I was on Seroquel for and stopped them both together this past January. Since January I have not been on any other medications. One last thing I want to add is that I might have weaned off my meds too quickly, i think i did it all in about three weeks, I had to do it by myself because my doctor did not want me to get off of them, he did not help me at all. But it has been four months now since my last dose of the meds, would this make any difference? Any feedback, input, or personal experience would really help me, I am just really concerned over my mental state. Thank you.