Ok... I have to ask... Has anyone ever set a deadline for themselves, that they would commit suicide if things weren't better by that date? I really feel that this is my best route. I do want to have a normal life. I feel that the date I've set is perfect. I don't want to get into my specific goals, but by the time I've set, if I don't have those goals accomplished, I will no longer have a chance at having a normal life. I won't feel sad. I know that my life would be too screwed up anyway. I have come so close before, but I've never actually set a deadline before. I'm scared to be even thinking like this, but I'm happy to have a deadline. I want to be alive, but I don't see a point in living a screwed up life with no chance of happiness.