I'm 17 years old. I'm in the United States Army National Guard in Tennessee. I've been getting into quite a bit of trouble here lately with my father. I turn 18 in 3 days. I've been using his truck without permission, which he calls stealing, and I agree to that. I don't know what makes me want to do all this stuff that I do. I've stole money out of his banking account, using checks that he left at the house, that amounted up to $900. He then made me sell a truck I bought myself for $1500 and sold it for $1350 though I'd put about $300 in it with his money. I know this is all my fault, but suicide SO passes through my brain so often. Not only to my father do I do these things, but I got other people that I'm lying to, such as my aunt, grandma, and step-grandpa, etc. It's about to kill me!