I dont how to say that I'm not in control of my thoughts anymore. It's very complicated. All I can say is my life isn't going to last to much longer do to losing my insurance and unable to stay on my meds.
I've been off my meds for about 4 days now and got to say I feel like I'm in a bloody war with myself. All I think bout is being put down by family and how everyone wats me to disappear for good. These thoughts are severly painful mentally and physically and something that's is scaring me alot. I'm stuck in a corner wondering if I'm going to make it through this another day or night cause everyday this week has gotten worse. I'm not eating or sleeping and working 12 hour days in the heat. Im feeling like I'm not make it much longer.
My family isn't supporting or helping in anyway wat so ever and at first I thought I would be fine but found out I wont make it through this alone. My days are limited of wat I can take. I'm worried of wat i will do without the help i know i need but dont have were to turn. I'm all alone on this and dont feel like it wouldnt matter if something happened to me. In many ways I feel many people would be happy. I really dont want to lose myself but my thoughts and pain I going through is unbearable and only getting worse.
I only ask and people to hear this cause I think I'm running out of time and hope if my family see this maybe they will understand I just need allittle help and support instead of throwing me in the ground. No matter wat I would never do that to someone and really wish I knew how to get through this alone cause I'm scared and dont know wat to do or who to go to.
If someone can please talk to me to maybe try and help or even yo get these thoughts out of my head cause I dont want to die. Please
I've been off my meds for about 4 days now and got to say I feel like I'm in a bloody war with myself. All I think bout is being put down by family and how everyone wats me to disappear for good. These thoughts are severly painful mentally and physically and something that's is scaring me alot. I'm stuck in a corner wondering if I'm going to make it through this another day or night cause everyday this week has gotten worse. I'm not eating or sleeping and working 12 hour days in the heat. Im feeling like I'm not make it much longer.
My family isn't supporting or helping in anyway wat so ever and at first I thought I would be fine but found out I wont make it through this alone. My days are limited of wat I can take. I'm worried of wat i will do without the help i know i need but dont have were to turn. I'm all alone on this and dont feel like it wouldnt matter if something happened to me. In many ways I feel many people would be happy. I really dont want to lose myself but my thoughts and pain I going through is unbearable and only getting worse.
I only ask and people to hear this cause I think I'm running out of time and hope if my family see this maybe they will understand I just need allittle help and support instead of throwing me in the ground. No matter wat I would never do that to someone and really wish I knew how to get through this alone cause I'm scared and dont know wat to do or who to go to.
If someone can please talk to me to maybe try and help or even yo get these thoughts out of my head cause I dont want to die. Please