I'm an adult by age but still so far back. I was (am) depressed. No friends to go out with, nothing "normal" to do. It's overwhelming how empty my life has been and makes me feel bitter and frustrated. I actually think I may have seen too much porn to "escape" (masturbating to it daily, sometimes multiple times) and that also ruined my sex drive. This feeling of inexperience holds me back. There's nothing I can do about it...except do things I know I would've done had I been healthier mentally. Like sex, I actually had a good sex drive at the beginning of my depression. I tried once but I wasn't into it and it was rather traumatizing that I "failed".. Having a a low sex drive and only being turned on by porn is unhealthy. Also, just kissing a while ago made me feel like I've accomplished something and gave me a good (rare) feeling. It may be immature but I didn't have that time to be "immature". Long story short, I want to have sex but I'm afraid it won't go well because of my pathetic sex drive and maybe cause I'm used to porn too. How's your sex drive? Have you experienced what I have? Have any suggestions, anything?