I have been under a lot of stress in the last few days, mainly because of very important deadlines coming up soon, the erratic behaviors of my roomate that are driving me to my limits of sanity and the fact that it's so hot/humid and it's playing with my level of tolerance... Anyhoo. I have terrible urges to SH. I constantly have my box-cutter open in front of me. I play with it, making small marks on my skin, just enough to see some redness. However, no matter how intense the impulse, I have some sort of a mental block. I am unable to fallow through in fear of having marks and scars that might potentially be detrimental to my career.Because of that, I am fearing that I will seek to SH in other ways because I don't seem to have any venting outlets beside this forum. I don't have any 'close' friends at the moment and I don't have the time to go see a counsellor. I know SH is not a healthy way to vent but I feel it's necessary to get my stuff done and to deal with with things on a day to day basis. I just hope I will have the will to stay safe until the rush is over.