im in a real bad place but yet it feels so right. but i'm so confused. i'm certain if i go to sleep i won't wake up tomorrow. i've been boozing, popping and cutting of r almost 4 days. i'm fighting going to sleep. fuck why can't i just goto sleep and it will all be over. ikeep thinking of the few ppl that i sort of helped here and how they will be mad at me if i die tonight. but then i think of all the ones i cant adn i want to go. and every time i read a new thread it seems like another teen is here. it so sad. and i can't do anything for anybody. somebody please help me to forget so i can sleep. i dont want to hurt anybody i just want ot die.