Two days ago I decided I wanted to live, not to die on the hillside with flowers. I've been blogging about my journey here: http://focusedonthelight.wordpress.com . I'm doing it under a pseudonym (I actually do write a blog under my real name, as well). But my goal here is to help support other people who are going through the same. I intend to live, but I want to share my story and help others.