And how could she? At least not with a friendly look. I'm a creep. Beside her I feel like some rotting abscess. She's so beautiful. And the way she moves, her personality is beautiful. She's calm and peaceful. Something I would love. She doesn't see me, just looks through me. But evil persons do, of course they do. They see me, they see nothing else than me for that short moment. Total strangers to each other, never going to see after that, but still they despise me for that short moment. They laugh. Maybe that's what I'm for? Not to be loved, but to be someone everyone else can laugh at, have their fun. A creep, a clown who has no fun himself. I feel stupid, waste.