I hope I have the right section of the forum; I just made my account recently and am still a bit fuzzy on all this. Anyways...I lately have been feeling suicidal. I always have, yet I've fought to stay alive for my friends and family. I was recently diagnosed with epilepsy and depression. I'm on strong medications, yet they don't seem to work. I've sought help in both a neurologist and a therapist. I've talked to my sister, the only one who truly understands me. I've been feeling shameful and guilty lately; I've lost interest in almost everything. I'm lost. My mom found out, even though I didn't want her to. Then she told my dad. They're constantly trying to keep me away from weapons and such. They overreacted. It hurts. My mom said it would take YEARS to get my depression and epilepsy under control. I've waited so long for the meds to work. I've tried so many different kinds of medications for my depression. I haven't made any serious plans about suicide, and my therapist seems to be happy about that, however it's been on my mind too much. Help? I don't want to die, but it's like...I feel like I have too.