Its about 1,5 year ago when I was down and planned to take my own life. I knew exactly how and had planned it for weeks. The same day, on a sunday I was at work. I didn't wont anyone to be suspicius, I was a bit nervous to get busted so I couldn't stay home. My plan was to play "normal" My co-worker must have noticed something off about me. I guess I was more quiet than usual, and had a dark shadow over me. Anyhow, She asked me how I felt, and I just answered that I was really great! After work she insist that I should not be alone tonight. I just called her off and walked home. I was ready to die.. Then she called me some few hours afterwords and told me she was really worried because I had chanced lately, and She could see that I needed help. We talked a long time and she make me promise to meet her the day after... I just decided to commit suicide later because I was afraid she would call me later If I said no, and if i didn't pick up the phone she would been at my door.. The day after I met her and she made me confess that I was suicidal. She is a really good woman and have this warm personality.. she helped me to get professional help. And I have not tried again.. I never tought anyone would notice me.. But i guess I was wrong! If it was not for her, i don't know if I would have been around anymore! Just wanted to share a sad, but happy story of my life But I do feel im going down to that level again. And I don't know what to do. But im holding on. Trying not to make any plans.. And be more sosial when im off work. I know i don't really want to die.. But my head is exploding of painfully toughts.. Im not sure if i dare to talk to my co-worker either. We don't work together anymore and I feel like im using her. What should I do? Get professional help again?