she could have been the one I saw something special in her. She had a wonderful personality and was very beautiful and everything I could want. If I was in another life, another body, I would have asked her out for dinner or something and probably even get married. But I being too ugly and a boring personality like mine would have no chance. At the time I never thought of it but its only after a while I realized she was quite special. Well, at least I saved her the disappointment I would bring to her if we would have got together. A girl of her wisdom and beauty should never ever be with a loser like me. She probably is now married to some deserving man. Its just going to me be me and my ugly face until this life is over. This life is too hard for me to have relationships. Just another reminder of how rubbish my existence is.