I fucked up my paper. I really, really fucked up this time social-anxiety-style. It's not like I didn't try, I knew the stuff, had all the oppertunities, I studied my ass off, did well on the practice tests. I started off well, attacking the paper like it was lunch, but my balls couldn't take the 12 mark question, and I started writing shit and crossing it out repeatedly until I ran out of time. With this fuckup I've not only let everyobdy down, I've messed up my future, I've wasted my chances. So since this exam went bad I don't really see any more reason to live, I think I'll probably commit suicide, maybe not soon but definetely before I get the results which is in just under 3 months, plenty of time to device a plan. I'll most likely become one of those 'exam suicide' statistics you see in the news. This is not a plea for help, this is a statement. I fucked it all up so I will kill myself.