Things in my life are quickly falling apart. Professionally. Personally. Mentally. Very quickly the small amount of hope I've been grasping onto is vanishing into nothing. I'm tired. I'm being practical. I see two choices. One choice is hospitalization. We all know what the other choice is. If I allow hospitalization I will probably lose my job. If I lose my job I'll lose my apartment and I have no where to go. How is that really a choice then? I see my therapist tomorrow. I have to decide. My depression persists despite the medication, despite therapy.. my external life mimics my internal. Everything is falling apart quickly, I'm almost in shock.. If anyone knows anything about hospitalization and what it entails and who they would contact etc, I would appreciate the knowledge.