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Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by cult logic, May 17, 2009.

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  1. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    You know what? Fuck everyone.

    Screw the world.

    Screw everything.

    No more. Fuck it all. I'm done.

    Goodbye all you people of sf.

    I hate everything.

    Goodbye. Good day.

    I'm happy to go.

    Screw it all.

    My friends, family. What does it matter?

    Hooray for overdosing on pills.

    Hooray for telling all you jerks about it.

    Fuck it. I'm done.

    I'm outta here.
     
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Bcs:unsure:

    What happened?

    Please talk to us about it! We will try and help..
     
  3. shades

    shades Staff Alumni

    Hey, cmon; You've always let us know what's goin on before; give us a chance. Send me a private message, pleeeease!
     
  4. MeAndYou

    MeAndYou Well-Known Member

    I'm ALWAYS willing to listen or give advice man. Tell us whats up or send me a PM. You have people here that care.
     
  5. poisonedresistance

    poisonedresistance Well-Known Member

    :sad: im worried for you, are you ok,,,,,,,????
     
  6. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    Seems this site wasn't safe from my little rampage yesterday.

    I got drunk as hell and did god knows what before overdosing and passing out in a puddle of my own vomit.

    And now I sit here at 3 am with the headache of my life unable to sleep.
     
  7. BriGuy

    BriGuy Antiquities Friend

    I'm glad you're still here Brandon! :hug: Sorry you're hurting so much! As I've told you before I am always happy to listen if you ever want to talk. Feel free to PM or MSN me anytime! Hope your headache lets up soon! :console:
     
  8. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I'm glad you're still here! I hope you feel better soon,pm me if you need to talk x
     
  9. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Close your curtains, take some tylenol or something get a ice cold glass of water, and an ice pack.. Lay in the dark with the ice pack on your head and drink the water as needed because of dehydration..It might take all day but it helps..
     
  10. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    Honestly I'm not that worried about the headache.

    I chronically get migraines so I'm pretty used to this sort of thing.

    It's the nausea and vomiting I can't stand.

    But I seem to be mostly past that.

    Gonna try and eat something then go about my day as usual.
     
  11. shades

    shades Staff Alumni

    Brandon...I'm so glad you're o.k. (relatively speaking, considering what happened).
     
  12. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    God, I wish I had died last night.
     
  13. Jack Rabbit

    Jack Rabbit Well-Known Member

    Drink lots and lots of water. A lot of the hangover is due to dehydration.
     
  14. BriGuy

    BriGuy Antiquities Friend

    :console: I wish there was a magic word to make you feel better!
     
  15. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    Believe me if there was one I'd have said it 50 times already.

    Would still rather just die. Would be easier.
     
  16. BriGuy

    BriGuy Antiquities Friend

    yes... but remember, easier isn't always better!

    But I do know how you feel... last night I felt very close... but I stopped myself again...
     
  17. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    Maybe.

    But in my case it certainly is.

    I mean, I have family that tells me I should kill myself!

    I am no longer drunk, but the feeling is still here.

    I only wish I had better stuff yesterday. I'd have probably succeeded too.

    I found what I took this last night this morning and it turned out to be nothing more than a bottle of melatonin pills.

    I would have used my trazodone or sertraline but my mom takes it to work with her just so I can't. Then I'd surely be dead.

    But at this point I'm just fantasizing. My world is crumbling anyway, with more things crashing down than anyone would care to hear about. I should all out snap soon and let it be done with.
     
  18. BriGuy

    BriGuy Antiquities Friend

    I am very sorry about your family... although your mom can't be one of them, or she wouldn't hide your pills from you, she would just give them to you.

    As for anyone caring to hear about it... I may not have all the answers, but as I have said before, I am always willing listen, if you need to vent, or just want to talk... feel free. I am pretty much almost always around... and almost always online... I have nothing better to do than wander around the internet and now SF. I have had people listen to me quite often, and I too am happy to listen when someone needs it as well. So you may think nobody cares enough to listen, but you're wrong. I know of numerous people here on SF that would always listen, including myself!

    I just want you to know that I do care! And that I'm here! :hug:
     
  19. Samsara

    Samsara Well-Known Member

    I know they have treatment for migrains. Or any medical affliction for that matter, besides the obvious :/
    but as for the psycological aspects, we are here to remedy <3
     
  20. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    I don't know.

    Maybe I don't really even want help.

    I had an appointment today about it meds and I flat out lied about having suicidal thoughts.

    The thought of telling someone I want to kill myself face to face makes me feel weak, pathetic, and ashamed.

    People in real life offer me help, and I lie and push them away.

    People here offer me their support and ears, and I cannot bring myself to initiate conversations with anyone.

    I just can't bring myself to get help.
     
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