I'm struggling badly with shocking mood swings I'm up and down but mainly I'm low as hell.My other conditions haven't made life easier either and on top of all that I was let down by a friend very badly.There is too much on my mind I don't know what to do,nothing seems to help talking for a little while does then it just goes back to normal.I'm struggling to fight off the suicidal thoughts,getting through another night won't be so easy for much longer.
I'm carrying alot of guilt from down the years having upset many people I feel,these days I don't want to do anything anymore.Each day is the same I hate it just existing,I don't even know why I write anymore all I do is waste people's time more than anything.I seem to write and think of the same things over and over again.I've tried changing but nothing comes about in the end.Years on end it's been like this,I hate sounding like I'm feeling sorry for myself I don't honestly.I've just been stuck in this hole forever not knowing how to get out.All I can think of now is just to escape as quick as possible and as soon as I can.
I'm carrying alot of guilt from down the years having upset many people I feel,these days I don't want to do anything anymore.Each day is the same I hate it just existing,I don't even know why I write anymore all I do is waste people's time more than anything.I seem to write and think of the same things over and over again.I've tried changing but nothing comes about in the end.Years on end it's been like this,I hate sounding like I'm feeling sorry for myself I don't honestly.I've just been stuck in this hole forever not knowing how to get out.All I can think of now is just to escape as quick as possible and as soon as I can.