I've not been too bad over Christmas, but I saw myself on video New Years Day and I hated what I saw (I'll spare you all the horrible details). Now I feel ready to throw in the towel. I feel so overwhelmed, with hundred and one things to do. For example I've been studying for some qualifications recently and I have a 2500 word essay to write and hand in by Friday and I haven't even started it yet. My disabled son doesn't go back to school until tomorrow - so I'm trying to keep occupied too. I've taken lots of different combination's of over the counter drugs to stop the pain - but nothing works. How can I carry on?