I should have left, so tired of the fighting the shouting the teeror the racing to protect the kids. I couldn't go to fireworks as couldn't have stood and the ground is saturated and the wheelchair would have got stuck. So I acted like I didn't care and sent them. As the pain is bad again I wish I had left properly. Should I consider us all going, I dont know Wjat to think or feel anymore I just know I cant handle this level of physical pain anymore 2 yrs ago and more why did I stop why did I risk thinking it was enough. Now there is no where left to turn.