Should I be gone? *tw*

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by P.J, Sep 12, 2016.

  1. P.J

    P.J Active Member

    As I sit here at night awake in my bed
    Still feeling the same bad thoughts in my head

    I'm hurt and I'm scared so deeply I'm torn
    Oh the desires I feel to have never been born

    As my legs curl up a cold tear rolls down
    I struggle to keep on I begin to shutdown

    Shaking and trembling my eyes seal tight
    I fear for the worst there is no hope in sight

    With my head in my hands I battle the thought
    But for too long I have tried I have fought I have fought

    Should I do it should I not
    All my beliefs become twisted in a knot

    But I sit here at night and I'm still holding on
    Should I stay or should I be gone?
     
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  2. Rockclimbinggirl

    Rockclimbinggirl SF climber Staff Member Safety & Support

    Hugs. You should stay.
     
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  3. Unknown_111

    Unknown_111 Forum Buddy Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi, sincere poem with true feelings. Hugs and please stay.
     
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  4. PumpkinSpice

    PumpkinSpice Member

    Stay.
     
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  5. Brian777

    Brian777 Safety and Support Forum Pro SF Supporter

    PJ your words are filled with feeling and even your avatar expresses so much. You have talent, stay and share it with us.
    Take care and be gentle with yourself
    Brian
     
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  6. SillyOldBear

    SillyOldBear Teddy Bear Fanatic Staff Member Safety & Support

    PJ, you expressed yourself wonderfully. You have an amazing talent with words. But what has brought such pain to your life? Like the others have said, please stay here. And your avatar is perfect. As you can see, I have a fondness for teddy bears too. Sometimes being with them is the only thing that brings comfort. Do you have anything that helps you?
     
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  7. P.J

    P.J Active Member

    Thank you Brian
     
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  8. P.J

    P.J Active Member

    Thank you SillyOldBear. Well so much has been taken from me and I feel I am just such a burden .. Yes I see your fondness of teddy bears too. Running and writing used to help me.
     
  9. SillyOldBear

    SillyOldBear Teddy Bear Fanatic Staff Member Safety & Support

    Well I can't speak to how well you run, but you write beautifully. My avatar is my favorite bear, Rudi. He has absorbed many a tear from me. I actually remember the day I bought him. How his big yellow eyes tugged on my heart.

    If you feel up to sharing, please let us know more about what was taken from you and why you feel such a burden. People here may have some ideas on how to get past that. I sense that you are an extremely kind soul who has suffered major hurt. There are not nearly enough kind souls in this world so I hope you will take care of yourself and stay with us.
     
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  10. P.J

    P.J Active Member

    Aw he's a cute bear and I'm glad he helps you :) .. Maybe in time I will. Right now I just don't know how or what to say, it's too hard - but thank you for your kind words :)
     
  11. SillyOldBear

    SillyOldBear Teddy Bear Fanatic Staff Member Safety & Support

    We will be here when you are ready to share.
     
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